Happy Happy...Merry Merry...Happy Happy...Merry Merry...Happy Happy...Merry Merry...

Things have changed. Most abruptly.

Everything is great with the baby. She's eating solid food like a mini-pro. She's currently getting lunch and breakfast. On Sunday she'll start with dinner too. We added pears and that doesn't seem to be a hit. I'm thinking peas will be next. I love her so much that it hurts, yet I seem to love her more and more everyday.

My husband is such a great father. He is caring and adoring, and he is so happy to be able to spend the majority of his time with his baby girl. He's been great all around. I am very lucky. My sister is the best aunt a kid could ask for. Maggie will definitely always have a place to go, someone to turn to if she needs that.

My friends, for the most part, have taken a hike. It's not so astounding anymore, and it's actually all right, but I'm still adjusting. I still have some very good friends, but the people that I thought would kinda always be there are not. It's funny, but I thought my 2006 lesson was forgiveness. I did pretty well with it when things went down around me. I had my feelings hurt, sometimes really badly, and I moved past it, forgot and forgave. Yet the people I thought were much better at that kind of thing are the ones who seem very unwilling to forgive me for my mistakes or have just suddenly hardened up and decided I am the enemy. And that is a good thing to know. A difficult lesson, but one I don't take for granted.

I'm definitely feeling some pain today, and it isn't because I'm vastly disappointed in people. It's because Jane and William aren't here for Christmas. It's my first in 15 years without them. It's a void in my heart. People can be as cold and as cruel as they like, but honey, they will never effect me the way the loss of my cat and dog does.

Tonight is our Christmas party. In years past, our parties have been great. 4 or 5 hour affairs with dinner and then after parties. This year it's 2 hours and some hors deouvres. People are calling it the Christmas Happy Hour. Well, I want one drink, dammit.

That's all for now. Talk to you all soon. And if you don't stop in again in the next few weeks, Merry Christmas Happy Hannukah Happy New Year and then the general happy holidays.

:)