Sunday Night...

Hello out there. It's been a crazy work week. I've written a few entries that expired before I could post or save as draft, but none were all that exciting. No loss!

I went for my post amnio appointment, and all is great. We heard baby Maggie's heartbeat (wow, that's the second time I've typed her name!) It was truly amazing. I'm glad Marcellino made it to the appointment. He was busy all morning. We found a used car we want, and Friday was the day for the mechanic to look it over and tell us if we should buy it or not. The verdict was yes. I'm 40 and I'm finally doing the things most people do when they're 10 and 20 years younger than me. Buying a car, having a baby, but damn! I'm so happy and excited about this stuff.

I never learned how to drive. My mother drilled it into my head that I'd kill someone if I drove, and it was one of the things she said that truly sunk in and scared the hell out of me. Then, I left home at 15 and went to the city. I didn't really need to drive. But now I'm back on Long Island and I'm still kind of scared to learn to drive. But Marcellino drove in Italy and is happy to drive here. The drag is that car insurance is going to cost us at least $1500 for only six months. It's more than what the car costs! But we'll deal and hopefully we'll be able to get cheaper insurance when the 6 months are up.

But thank god we'll be able to get where we need to go before and after the baby comes.

I saw a very cool movie last night on dvd. It's called MirrorMask. Neil Gaiman made it - he writes very cool graphic novels. I'd read some of his Sandman comics way back, so when I saw he'd made his own strange version of "Alice In Wonderland" I was intrigued. The story wasn't great, but the art and the acting made it very much worth seeing.

My sinus infection and ear infection seems to be going away. Looks like the z-pack x 2 works! Thank god. I was so afraid of getting serious bronchitis and maybe pneumonia with the baby.

Cat William went to the vet today. Not great news, but not really anythign we didn't know. He's losing more weight and he's very slowly fading. The doctor said it's good that he still eats and he's still enjoying his life, but I told him to please tell me if he thinks Bill is suffering. I am afraid that I could fool myself and be selfish, but I don't think I'm capable of that. It felt good to talk to the vet and be open and tell him that I know what time I have with Bill is borrowed, a bonus. I don't want him to pay for that time. He's had a great life and I don't want it to end with him enjoying nothing and just being here for me.

My friend Angel sent me a link to a very cool website called change me. It's very much worth checking out, and was put up by getty images.

I don't know what else to tell you, except that when I tell Jane (dog) to "say hi to the baby" or "say hi to Maggie", she barks, and now I feel the baby kick in response! It's so cool! Sometimes I sing her name and I feel her move, wiggle! It's great! God, I love this kid so much. I can't wait to see her.

I'll be back soon. Please post comments if the mood strikes you!