We went to the doctor on Monday. I was pretty freaked out. Very scared. I just kept going over and over in my head the stories about the women I know who lost their babies.

First they did the Doppler thing on my belly (which is really friggin big now!) to hear the heartbeat, and couldn't hear anything. I started to worry, but they said hey, it's only 13 weeks and sometimes the doppler doesn't pick up the heartbeat until a few weeks later. They they did the sonogram, and there was the baby!! Wriggling around, heart beating like crazy. Everything looked great, but he was making this weird, rythmic movement. Then it hit me!

He had the hiccups!!

I asked the doctor - does he have hiccups? She looked at him for a minute and said "yes! he does! poor thing. what did you have for breakfast?"

I looked at her like, uh oh. "Toast". She was pissed! I had no idea how directly something like that would effect him. I was nervous, so I thought I'd eat after the appointment, and that's what we ended up doing.

So all is well with the baby. I still don't know for sure that he's a boy, but I'm really feeling that more and more. I can't hide the belly - it's way past that stage (I never really had that stage!) and it makes it a bit uncomfortable around one of the girls who lost her baby. It's hard to be happy when someone is hurting so immensely.

Everyone at my job is so cool and excited about the pregnancy. Some of the guys I work with just make me laugh. They're all so tough, but damn! I'm not allowed to carry anything around the office that weighs more than a couple of ounces. I was trying to climb up on a chair to get something and one of the guys came runnin at me "girl, are you OUT YO MIND?!?" Heh heh. I love them so so so much. I'm very very lucky. I only wish I didn't have to commute into NYC on the LIRR everyday. That's the only thing I hate.

Well, I guess I'm going to have to get REAL and start writing a book proposal that I promised to do before Thanksgiving, and to finally format my damn screenplay to see if it will sink or swim. Wouldn't that be amazing? Then I could write for a living. No more commute!!

I need baby name ideas. I already have my girl name if I'm wrong and that's who I'm carrying, but I need some boy names. Does anyone have any suggestions? I emailed a list of my thoughts to my sister. Her response was "those are great names for dogs". Heh heh. GREAT!

Hit me with ideas - I'm wide open! :)