polar bear baby.

at this point, i'd even adopt him. well, until he grew a little!

it's too damn hot today.

no, really. it is. thank gods that we now have a/c in the office. i'm very very grateful. i took the late train into the city and that was kind of lovely. i got to sit with the italian and we rode in together. first though, the shower caddy thing attacked me twice even before i even got into the damn stall. okay, i really hate that part of my apartment. i have no bathtub. it totally sucks. it's impossible to find shower curtains that are actually remotely decent looking for this tiny bathroom with a dumbass shower stall. but the caddy has decided it doesn't want to stay put, it would much prefer to ski down the shower head and hit me in the face. grrrrrrrrr. annoying to say the leastest. but that was the worst of the morning.

i'm working right up to my due date. they wanted a date, so that's what i told them. leave me alone already. they aren't really bothering me though. if i go into labor sooner, than great. whatever. i need all that time with the baby. unless she's really annoying, then i'll just come back to work early. i'm kidding. relax. it's going to be the hardest thing i'll ever do - coming back to work and leaving this baby. i'm dreading that part already.

last night, as i was rushing out the door from work, one of my coworkers was standing on the sidewalk holding this little blob that had the most enormous brown eyes i've ever seen. it was a pug. i don't know what came over me.

i was looking at the pug.

the pug was looking at me.

the next thing i knew, she was making lovey noises at me and i was kissing her head and telling her that her eyes were like deep pools of chocolate. it was kind of embarrassing when i realized there were like 12 people i work with standing there watching this scene. but i just couldn't help it. she (coco) is like a little gremlin - the good kind! might be nice to find a pug mix... anyway, i finally excused myself and kissed little coco goodbye.

i'm getting so lazy. i can't list my stuff on ebay anymore. i seem to be going home, eating and talking on the phone. i mean, when i'm on maternity leave, that's exactly what i'll be doing in addition to feeding and caring for the baby! what's wrong with me?? i need to make some money to buy maggie the cutest stuff ever!! but it's all so overwhelming. i just want to do NOTHING when i'm home lately.

i realize this should have come before the polar bear pictures, but how horrible is it that two more of our soldiers were not only killed, but tortured and beheaded? i can't even imagine. these poor kids. tears my heart out. why can't we just get the fuck out of there?? the iraqis aren't stupid, and they'll solve their own problems, or they won't. we got the biggest obstacle out of the way - saddam. jeez. so sad.

okay. i'll talk more later if i have a second. i'm trying to get everything ready for my maternity leave. not an easy task!! ciao.