animal shelter

it was my sister's birthday yesterday.

we ate crepes.

we ate more crepes.

we went to a lame street fair thing.

we went to an animal shelter. a no kill shelter on the island. we looked at dogs, but they were all pit mixes. i'm not going to adopt a pit mix. i know that, not with a baby coming. i told them i wasn't ready to adopt, but i wanted to know what was out there. after we saw the dogs (and the puppies, which were all rottie mixes, and friggin adorable), i asked to see the cats. in true cat person style, the lady was kind of a bitch to me. she said things like "i guess you'll want to see the kittens?" i said, well, i'd like to see the kittens, but that's not why i'm here...but you could see these people didn't like me. so i thought, fuck it. let's see the kittens. they were adorable. unreal. and then i went back to the main part of the shelter where all the older cats hang out together (which was really nice and not shelter like at all). while we were there i was grabbing kitty heads and petting the peanuts. they were great! so loving and sweet. but behind me was a stack of two cages. i turned around and saw Cosmo. oh my god.

cosmo is white and gray. he gets up and comes right to you when you say his name. you stick your fingers in the cage, and he rubs right up against you, purring. he's less than a year old. he also has no eyes. i think i fell in love. the woman who had been a bitch started to change her tune a little bit and asked me if i'd ever had a cat. i told her i did animal rescue work and was so bad at it i ended up with 10 cats at one point, and that the one i'd had for 20 years just passed away. she then told me all about cosmo. he'd come in with a serious eye injury to both eyes, and that the vet thought it best to remove them all together to keep him comfortable. i guess he had no chance of regaining his sight. she then told me to go ahead and open the cage. he was only in there to protect him from the other cats. when i opened the door, he came right to me, feeling his way with his paws. then he found his ball and hit it toward me. i wanted to scoop him up and hold him, but i knew if i did, i'd adopt him. and i couldn't do that. i'm sticking to my guns. i'm allergic, my husband is allergic. that's fine, but if the baby is allergic, it's a major problem. so cosmo will stay put for now, and if he's adopted by a loving person or family, great. if not, and we have the baby, we'll find out if she's allergic too. if she's not, maybe cosmo will come and live with us. the problem is that i don't know if we'll be able to have a dog with cosmo. it would be difficult enough for him with a baby in the house.

i saw the cutest baby boy this morning. i've had some strange run ins with the cutest baby boys this past week. we ran into Target last week to use the bathroom, and two little girls had come in right after with this baby boy. one of the girls (she couldn't have been more than 10) was trying to get the baby out of his stroller and onto the changing table. she was having a really hard time, and i was afraid she'd drop him. i asked if i could help. first she said no thank you, and then i said i'll just lift him to the table, and the rest will be up to you. she said okay, yes. i asked his name - Roberto, and i smiled at him and i held out my hands. i said "hey roberto, wanna come with me?" and it was SO beautiful! his hands came straight up and I picked him up, placed him on the changer. i asked the girls if they wanted me to stay and help put him back in the stroller afterwards, but they said they could handle it. i left them alone, but i was worried. i saw them leaving a little later and was thrilled that he was fine! today i saw the most adorable little boy behind me on the escalator at Penn Station. i smiled, he smiled. i said "hi!" and he said "hi!" oh my god!!! what a doll! big dimples.

i had a little acident today at work. one of the interns was doing some filing in my office and yanked on this plastic part of the drawer to pull it open instead of the metal part. this plastic thing came flying off at a huge speed and hit me right under the nose. i couldn't stop bleeding! it was crazy. it's the tiniest cut, but facial wounds bleed like nothing else. the poor kid was absolutely freaking out. i was thrilled to come home tonight. i tell you.

more later.